Runaway October

This was sup­posed to be posted yes­ter­day, but I was hav­ing tech­ni­cal dif­fi­cul­ties. I fig­ured out it was my theme. Hang out for awhile while I mess around with find­ing a new one I like. Changes to come.

OH! I got my cam­era. We’re back in action! Yay!

You all may have noticed that I haven’t posted much lately. It’s actu­ally not because of blog­gers block. I have lots I’d like to do. Instead it’s because lack of cam­era is just frus­trat­ing. Blogs that don’t have some kind of pic­tures are usu­ally removed quickly from my Google Reader. Also, once I switched to host­ing my own blog, all of the WYSIWYG for­mat­ting has just turned into… crap. Take a look at some of my pre­vi­ous posts and you may see what I mean. I have a weird sense of per­fec­tion­ism. If some­thing doesn’t come out per­fect, or rel­a­tively close, I rarely try again. Kind of a… “Why bother if the next one is going to suck too?” type attitude.

Any­way.… Here’s what’s hap­pen­ing today:

Work­ing On: I recently found Swap-Bot and have a few swaps that I need to get going, includ­ing a pri­vate one with my beau­ti­ful chum, Nicky. I’m also try­ing to put together an order for a Co/Op with Fron­tier. Oh, did I men­tion I have 5 kids under the age of 3 today? Yeah, I might just pop a few brain cells today.

Eat­ing: Nutella! Why is it that I was 24 before I dis­cov­ered this sin­fully deca­dent treat? Maybe the vaguely “foreign-looking” label­ing made me think of pureed mar­mite or some­thing? Although I’ve tried it many ways, the best way to eat it is with a spoon or to use in bak­ing. Any other ideas? Oh, and did you know that it’s made by the same com­pany that makes Tic-Tacs?

Lis­ten­ing To: Matt Nathanson. Yum. (Since Matt asked — Yum is for the music, not the artist.)

httpv://youtube.com/watch?v=vxn-E61Hv6s

Read­ing: The Mem­ory Keeper’s Daugh­ter. My older sis­ter, Bon­nie, has Down Syn­drome. So does one of my lit­tle day­care dudes. I was hur­ry­ing through CostCo and decided to pick up a book, so as I was cruis­ing through the aisle I just grabbed one with a famil­iar title and a vaguely inter­est­ing cover. Ugh. It’s a tear­jerker, but in a good way I sup­pose. I try to imag­ine what my fam­ily went through when Bon­nie was born, and just can’t. I’ve obvi­ously never had an issue with Spe­cial Needs kids because I grew up with one, and some of the pas­sages in this book just made me so so angry. I rec­om­mend you read it.

Wait­ing On: Matt to get home, of course. But I look for­ward to the UPS guy even more…! He has my cam­era, a whole stash of fab­ric and crafty stuff, as well as a new carseat for Mr Rowan. Of course it’s not all com­ing today, but I can hope. He should be drop­ping off a screen for Matt’s new toy too.

Research­ing: St Patrick’s Day recipes. There’s so many to choose from, and I don’t have much time to do a trial run first.

• Molten Choco­late Cakes with Irish Cream
• Soda Bread
• Col­can­non
• Rum­blede­thumps
• Gui­ness Cakelettes
• Choco­late Stout Cake
• Etc…

Drool­ing Over: Wall Graph­ics!! What I wouldn’t give for some of these beau­ti­ful murals in my house… Wait, step one is own­ing a house? Are you sure? Drat.

Bear with me guys. I’m expe­ri­enc­ing tech­ni­cal dif­fi­cul­ties and have called in the pro­fes­sional, but Matt’s got a class to teach tomor­row so he can’t help me tonight.

What’s your favorite thing to spend money on?

The Boys, or craft sup­plies. It’s so much eas­ier to shop for clothes for peo­ple that wear a “nor­mal” size. Shop­ping for me is a depress­ing, sweaty expe­ri­ence. I also love to see it when they liked some­thing I picked out, but hey that’s a great feel­ing. As for craft sup­plies it’s a dou­ble edged sword. I love to shop, so I feel like I’m not totally blow­ing money, but on the other hand my projects are low­est pri­or­ity in my house, so some­times the $100 of fab­ric I had to have just col­lects dust.

I also love to shop for décor, but it’s also another low pri­or­ity to the “décor-ally chal­lenged” boys in my house and the AWESOME vase I found just doesn’t flow with the fin­ger smudges, tape mea­sures and dinosaurs that the boys proudly display.

If you could retire tomor­row what would you do?

It depends on what you mean by retire. If it meant that I no longer had to con­form to the demands and sched­ules set by the kids, then I think I’d travel and try and hone my mea­ger pho­tog­ra­phy skills. There are so many amaz­ing places I’d like to see and experience.

If you mean retire by no longer doing day­care, well, then it would be exactly the same thing tomor­row just one or two less PB&Js to make.

Should any­thing be cen­sored and if so, what and why?

For adults I don’t see any rea­son to. Make the deci­sion your­self, don’t let some­one else decide what you can and can’t see/hear/experience/etc.

For chil­dren, yes. I had my tra­gus pierced yes­ter­day and dur­ing the pro­ce­dure a com­ment was made regard­ing a Death­proof movie poster in the room. I said I had tried to watch it, but when the movie finally picked up (it’s one of those hor­rid Taran­tino movies that are so slow to get started) it was just too hard to try and explain to a 2 year old why the girl wasn’t wear­ing a seat­belt and promptly had her skull oblit­er­ated because of it. There are just some things that a child doesn’t have the… expe­ri­ence(?) to com­pre­hend, though I firmly believe that chil­dren are smarter than we are by far.

At one point in my life, I had an amaz­ing group of friends. Every last one of them would get up and do stu­pid things with me, regard­less of where we were. As I watched this video I imme­di­ately thought of them. I cried. The video is so cute and touch­ing, but I know beyond a doubt that we would have done this were we all still together. I can still hope, but as many of us have come to real­ize we turn into adults and there’s almost no going back.

{Hugs for everyone}

httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4

You find that your best friend has stolen money to pay for med­ical treat­ment for a seri­ously ill rel­a­tive. What would you do?

Hmm… I guess it depends on how much money it was, who their rel­a­tive was and what I needed the money for. If they’re starv­ing my kids to help pay for a heart trans­plant that will likely fail in a 94 year old grandma then I’d raise some seri­ous hell. I also have a very low tol­er­ance for peo­ple that steal from fam­ily and friends — that’s just super lame.

What three things you regret not learn­ing to do?

I still, hope­fully, have a lot of time left in my life to do all the things I still wish to do. I regret that I didn’t learn more things when I was younger because it would have been so much eas­ier then.

I cur­rently regret not learn­ing how to become inde­pen­dently wealthy by 20 though. I also regret not learn­ing how to play gui­tar, or speak in front of large crowds.